Friday, September 23, 2011
So on the FG front...thought I'd keep that separate from my Swiss Mr post this time...well we did end up having a chat last week, I think it was? Anyway, we decided that there would be no expectations or obligations. That if I wanted to text or message I would do so, or invite him for dinner or dinner and sex, or just SEX, I would do so, but he also would have to be more upfront and not respond with a "maybe"...if it is maybe, then he is uncertain and should just say "no". I also told him to not message "xxxx" and "I miss you", because when he turtles it stops and it feels like a slap in the face. Shit do I sound like a bossy boots or what? But I needed to assert myself and tell him what was going to work for me or not. The bottom line here is, I want him in my life. I love having sex with him, I need him, right now. As I stated in my post with Swiss Mister, I know he is not my "future". I know on many levels we do not work. But I do know we have some very hot sex! It's funny I spoke of Swiss Mr's gentle ways, FG is the opposite! He pulls my hair and holds my arms back and controls the pace of our sex, pushing my hands away when I try to unbuckle his belt. He even had his hands on my neck the other night, ever so lightly but I have to say it was kind of hot! I have nothing else going on right now, nor do I want to seek anything else. So why can't I have him in my life right now? I figure if I can protect myself by not having any expectations of anything more with him, this can work...for now!
So since having this conversation and my change of mind set, he of course is full-on ha ha...but THIS TIME I am controlling my reaction to it...I am keeping it cool! He was even quite insistent on picking me up on my return from my visit with Swiss Mr. It was kinda cute, he sort of "dressed up", and even got out of his car to meet me and gave me a hug and a kiss...IN PUBLIC! And as soon as we got home, I didn't even get my coat off before he had me up against my door and was kissing me passionately. He of course stayed the night and came again the next night for more...but we just had two nights off, and it feels great...we can have time together, hot sex, and our space too. This could work! It definitely feels better than it has in the past.
This mindset is also better for me to try to get focus back on me and my life and where I am headed! Any suggestions anyone? Some times I am so clear on what I need to do and where I want to go, and other days (most days), I lose my mojo and my drive to make the changes. I know it is fear that holds me back. Not really sure what I am even fearful of. Intellectually I know there is nothing to fear and whatever step I take will be a positive one. I do truly believe that, but there is some kind of super crazy powerful glue on my feet...can anyone recommend a good adhesive remover????
Anyway, happy friday everyone! Hope everyone gets fucked this weekend!
Well...I went to see him! Swiss Mister's travel plans changed and he had a night and day available for me, so I booked off work and made arrangements to go and see him in a city nearby this past Sunday.
In some ways I wish I had not gone, as saying goodbye AGAIN was hard and I miss him even more. I never dreamed when he was coming out this way to visit that I would get the opportunity to spend so much time with him. He truly is so very special - he is a man that I could see myself with in the "real" world.
We planned for me to travel to him after I spent the day with some girlfriends. He had booked a hotel room for us (it was quite cute, he was very excited about this "suite" he had booked for us). When I arrived, he greeted me at the door in his towel, and was so pleased to show me the "suite". I had been eating and drinking all afternoon, so I needed to dig deep for some energy for this night ahead of us. With Swiss Mister though that is not a problem, things are so easy with him and comfortable. Not in a boring kind of way, but like your favorite old shirt or sweat pants! Soothe your soul - kinda way!
Well it did not take long to start kissing, and for me to rip that towel off and take him into my mouth, and he reciprocated with his amazing oral skills, which ended up with a fuck and a nice wet spot on the bed.
We headed out to dinner, hand in hand...after dinner, as we walked out of the restaurant, we discussed whether we shall go for another drink or back to the room for a massage...funny, we both agreed on the massage! He was supposed to massage me first, but I ended up taking control in that regard, until he took control and flipped me over to fuck me from behind.
We ended up falling asleep, "snuggling and cuddling" (he loves to do that, even googled the words, as those are not in the Swiss vocab). At around 5 a.m. I awoke and was feeling a bit wired again, so I began touching myself...well not long after he awoke and also started to stroke his cock; there is just something about mutual masturbation that turns me on, and clearly him too! He ended up sliding into me from behind and I moved on top of him, he had me cumming in no time, but no such luck for him (I think he may still have been sleeping ha ha).
We crashed again, and then I awoke around 8 or so. I wanted to let him sleep, so I snuck off into the shower. Next I knew he was climbing into the shower. We started kissing and he soaped me up a bit, but then requested we head back to the bed. This time he was awake! and ready for my ass! I love his gentleness, we took our time until we found our rhythm (and some lube!). This time he was able to cum...and so did I, all over his cock, which surprised him a bit!
Back into the shower and off for breakfast! We had a wonderful breakfast at one of my favorite diners and then hit the shops! It was so much fun walking downtown and holding hands and trying on clothes - giving each other our opinions on certain items. Today I am actually wearing my "swiss" jeans...and I love them! Mostly cause they remind me of this wonderful day!
The day was coming to a close and he offered to drive me to the station for my return home. We were running late, so I missed my first connection. He offered to wait with me for the next one two hours later. I went and grabbed us dinner and we sat in his "travel van" and watched the sun set. After dinner, we climbed into the back of the van (which conveniently had a bed ha ha), and we just "snuggled and cuddled" and listened to "classic rock". We did not talk much at this point, we just basked in this moment together. We had talked earlier in the day about his potential return next summer (which I was not expecting at all as I had been thinking about travelling to Switzerland), so I knew this was not the last time I would see him, just an intermission.
Who knows where we will be next summer in our lives, but either way we will meet again. I have no expectations for this "relationship", I am just thankful to have had this experience...again! We did occasionally joke about a future together. We talked about me going on his "world trip" in 5 years from now. We actually would travel well together as we are quite alike, and enjoy similar things. Who knows if this would ever come to light, but it is always nice to have a dream!
He is off travelling again with his friend, still on the continent! Not likely to return this way again before he returns home. We have been staying in touch when we can. I messaged last night and asked him when I will stop missing him, and his response was "One day you probably will...But it will take some time as the last time we've seen us in 2009. But it's the same for me...We'll get that fixed as hard as it may be :)" (okay the translation is a bit off, but you get the idea!). I was telling Kat, he always knows just what to say. He does not blow smoke but he also expresses similar feelings back to me, that this too is special to him; I am special to him.
Back to life, back to reality ...
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I'm so glad that Agnes met her Swiss Mr! Agnes's Swiss Mr. came back after two years to visit. After their weekend away he planned on coming to see her in our home town (Agnes will have to catch you guys up on her own adventures with Swiss Mr.). This is when Agnes suggested he bring his friend that he was travelling with because she had a friend (ME) that could entertain him. I was a little apprehensive and asked that they send a picture of his friend. (so wish I could post the picture that was sent because it was absolutely delicious.) As soon as I saw that naked ass staring at me I was so excited to meet my new friend. The plan was that all four of us would go out for dinner. So they picked me up at home and I climbed into the back seat with Swiss Mr.'s hot friend (Now known as Hotty). Anyways, we had a lovely dinner and after some great conversation, some flirting with the eyes, we decided to take a walk along the water. As soon as we started walking he took my hand and we chatted. I was so dying to just lean over and kiss him...get it over with...but for one reason I was holding back (WTF I never hold back). When we got back to the car and started driving back to Agnes's place he leaned over and kissed me...a long passionate kiss. Now I could of stopped right there because the kissing was...well....not so great. But as my hand wondered down and I felt his BIG hard cock..there was no way I wasn't taking this further. When we finally got to Agnes's (I swear to got she was driving like an old granny on purpose) we started having a drink. But I couldn't wait any longer...left the wine behind and lead him up to the attic. Once up the stairs he gently laid me on the bed and proceeded to remove my clothes and kissing my body as he did it. I was anxious to get a look at that cock but his tongue flicking over my clit felt so amazing that I lost complete control. He started fingering my pussy and my ass at the same time and it didn't take long for me to have my first orgasm. After he was done licking up all my juices I took the control over and stripped him of his clothes. WOW he had the most amazing cock (oh yeah and the most perfect body to match). I took him into my mouth until he pulled me up and said "I don't want to cum yet". He must have known how large he was because he entered me slowly and once he was fully in he asked if it hurt. Are you kidding...it felt fucking amazing. He had me in every position imaginable and over and over he was making me cum (sorry Agnes you had to listen to my screams and moans of ecstasy). We had to take short breaks because Agnes's attic was like 150 degrees. After an hour and a half (or maybe longer..I have no idea) he was ready to cum...so I sucked his cock and inserted a finger in his ass and he finally blew his load in my mouth.
The next day I didn't think I would be able to ever have sex again. All my body parts were hurting...but when I knew I would be seeing him again that night the hurt miraculously went away. We had a repeat of the previous night and I swear I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Not only was he a passionate lover but he was also the sweetest guy I had ever met.
Sooooooooooo now both Swiss Mr.s are gone. :( I know that Agnes will see her Swiss Mr. again but I have doubts that I will (and I'm okay with that). It was an amazing couple nights that I will never forget.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Oh and that he did...
It had been two years since we first met on my annual girls' trip! We had maintained contact as I had mentioned in past posts. I was of course filled with excitement and guilt as the day approached. The guilt because before I left on my trip FG had turned things on again (which of course have since been turned off! ha ha...story of my freaking life!). My friend and I commenced our journey, with the first stop being the airport to pick up Swiss Mister!
My friend dropped me off so I could wait inside the airport...as I combed the arrivals with my eyes, my heart was pounding with excitement! Next my phone range and it was him, saying "I can see you!" I followed his directions and there he was...we gave each other a kiss and a big hug and just instantly started talking. We all talked all the way to our destination. It was so easy, just picking up where we left off. All my uncertainties fell away. Here we were about to start 4 nights together, only having spent 3 nights together 2 years ago! Sharing cooking, a bathroom and a bed! I knew as soon as I saw his toiletries lined up in a row on the bathroom counter...we were meant to be! ha ha
We got settled in and then we decided we would go check out where the hot tub was...when we were there, no one else was around, he grabbed me and started to kiss me and move his hands all over my body, we were facing into a very public parking lot. As things were heating up , he moved us away from public viewing and we ended up in the changeroom for the hot tub. The one thing that Swiss Mister recalled most fondly from our meeting two years before was the day we left this location and him and I had gone for a walk and ended up at his apartment, I surprised him with a farewell blowjob. So what better way to welcome him back but to take him into my mouth again...hello cock, where have you been for two years...mmm my how your cum tastes so yummy! And the tone had been set for our trip!
I will not give every detail, but let's just say, we ended our nights fucking and woke up fucking every day that we were there, with some bonus sessions. The one nice thing about Swiss Mister is while he is not very big, he knows how to use it. He had me in many new positions and feeling sensations I had never felt before...and of course he got my ass!
It was just so incredible spending all this time with him...I had forgotten how affectionate he was, every chance he had he was kissing my neck or touching me. And he loved to snuggle and cuddle in bed with me.
He had mentioned that he may have a day or two that he could come visit me at home. Sure enough that was confirmed following my return, and or course the bonus for Kat was, he was bringing his friend! They would stay with me for two nights! My first houseguests...how exciting! I was not too concerned about FG as he had gone underground. The boys arrived Sunday afternoon and we started the visit with dinner out that evening. A double date with Kat! So strange for us to be out in public with our men...on a date...and so wonderful! These are truly very special men!
That night of course, was more typical back at my place...while Kat was busy upstairs with the energizer bunny, Swiss Mister and I had our own fun down below. We enjoyed some giggles timing out Kat and Hotty's next orgasm! "Here they go again!"
Unfortunately I had to work the next morning. But on my return home that afternoon, I arrived to my two Swiss boys...what a life! I had told them I would cook them dinner, so they sat and chatted with me while I prepped dinner for them. We shared some wine and great conversation. At one point at the dinner table, I just kept staring at them both thinking I was the luckiest girl alive. Two hot men sitting at my dinner table, and a murphy bed only steps away! ha ha...I restrained myself! We met up with Kat later so she could get one last session in before their departure the next day. Swiss Mister and I left them alone and headed back to my place for our final night alone. It was a wonderful mixture of passion and just a mutual admiration for one another. Swiss Mister is a very gentle lover; we really fit very well. There were no tears, well maybe a wee one snuck out as we lay holding each other. We exchanged words of thankfulness for this opportunity to reconnect again after two years and told each other how special we really are to one another. We talked about me visiting him in Switzerland. I hold out no hopes or delusions of a "relationship" with this man, but am merely thankful to have had such an experience...a second time!
There is a very small chance he may return for one last visit before heading home, and if that happens that would be a bonus, but if not I will just enjoy what I had. Swiss Mister is at the point in his life where he is looking to settle down, so this quite probably is the last time we will see each other in this way, and hopefully things will happen at my end too. Will I travel to Switzerland? I would love to. But we will see how things play out.
I thanked Swiss Mister via messaging later that day thanking him for his visit and that it was even more special than he even knew. He made me realize what I want for my next relationship, and that I do not want to settle on the things that are most important to me. I think I was starting to settle and compromise on many things. While FG is in my life for now in the capacity he is only capable of, I do know he is not someone I will be with long term; he is not someone who will allow me to do the things I want to do in life THAT I have come to realize. I think time will just naturally lead me to where I need to be...day by day, close no doors but keep moving forward all at the same time.
It's funny when I write about someone who is so special to me, it is hard to give the raw dirty details, because the sex is so much more than sex it cannot be described in words...for me that would take away from what I experienced. As I write this I am smiling from the inside out.